I never really liked you anyway. That was at first. And then suddenly things have changed. I can’t recall the day that your smile made me smile too. The day that your voice was enough to let me make it through a rough day.
But then I wasn’t sure. I was not sure if you are what I needed nor wanted. I wasn’t sure of what I feel. And I will never be.
I like you. But that’s just it. A feeling that I want to bury deep down and pretend that I never really felt anything. A feeling that I disgust. I disgust because all I ever wanted was to fight for it but you never seemed to give me a reason to fight for what I feel. To fight for you.
But today I realized, it was not your fault at all. It was all mine. I’m not brave enough to show you or let you know how I feel. And suddenly it hit me. That I am scared of everything. Of what I feel for you, of what others will say and of you. I’m scared of the thought that I’m the only one giving meaning to everything you do or say. And so I will just say goodbye. And my plan A from day one is still my plan A up to this day. That is….to forget this feeling and let it things just the way they are. You will never know that I like you and I will never let you know.
I’m happy for you and I will always be. And so as always..Smile often..It surely brightens my day.